How?This is a common word.You hear it often. I am sure many of us use it every day. But for me so much of every day begins with how. The first word in each thought. Every question I find courage to speak out loud. In every aspect of my life...how?
How will I make time? How will I get everything I need to done? How will I be a good mother to my children? How can I be a good wife? How can I divide myself between my two children that I gave birth to and the son who became mine when I was married? How can we become a "family"? How can I make my kids understand? How can I show my step son that I DO love him? How can I make up the deficit that his mother has created? How can I be a mother to my children and know my boundaries with my step son? How can I hold back the way I mother, when a child is not receptive? How do I hold back myself to this boy? How do we move forward? How do we get off this roller coaster? How do we find a happy medium for all of us? How do I get through to the people who need me most without losing my very self? How do I do this...all the while, trusting God?