Better Known As Mommy

Sunday, October 7, 2012

Reflections

I have decided that I want to do a post for myself on reflections of the last couple years of my life. I vowed to close that door and not go back, but I feel like God wants me to reflect. I think He wants me to see where I was, where I have come, and where I am going. So these reflections are for me. This first one is reflecting on how much things have changed in two years…

When I look back over the last few years I stand amazed. Who I am now. Where I am now. If you would have known me 2 years ago you would not have believed it was possible!

Two years ago abuse and pain from my past had settled into my soul threatening to break me. Two years ago my marriage was crumbling. Two years ago I was broken. I was so broken that I felt there was no fix. Depression had settled into every part of my being and the only thing I could think was that I wanted this to be over and I didn’t know how. So I begged God. Nightly. I begged him to please to please take me from this world as I slept. But He didn’t. You see His plans for me were far greater that I could even fathom from the depth of the darkness that had settled into me. And today I am so grateful for that. I am grateful for his love and His mercy. I am grateful that He knew that though this valley was low and my world was dark, He had a promise to lift me from that valley and place me on the mountain top and shine his light on my life. And I am so thankful. I am so thankful for the love that He breathes into my life. I am thankful that my marriage is being healed. I am thankful that I wake every day to the love of my children. God I thank you for it all. I know that I am nothing without You. I see You in all things. And I am so thankful that You are ever present. Thank You God for hearing the cries of my ugly heart and reaching into it and making it new and beautiful in You! Thank you God for knowing the plans You had for me. Thank You for knowing far more than I could comprehend.

While this is just a small testimony of God’s grace and mercy in me….I look forward to finding the words to share my reflections in a way that gives Him all the glory!

Monday, August 20, 2012

Happy Birthday Christopher

Today is your 12th birthday! I can’t believe how fast you have grown and what a big guy you are these days. I am so proud of you and the young man you are becoming. I am so thankful that God gave you to me…who would have thought I was worthy of such an amazing gift. Entrusted with such a big responsibility. Or maybe it was you who had the responsibility? To show me what love really was, to teach me how to be unselfish, to give me strength and courage? That’s a lot for a little guy. But you have done it all! I knew real love when my eyes met yours for the first time. Life was no longer about me…it was about us. And you will never understand the strength I drew from you when life was unkind. Every year I get sad that you have grown so much, but this year, while I am nostalgic for baby days, I am proud! I am so proud of my son! You amaze me EVERYDAY! Watching you grown and learn takes my breath away!

You still have so much to learn. And not everything in life is fun. Or happy. And I think you are learning this already. But no matter what keep on being you. Stay true to yourself above all things. You have the world at your feet. You can go anywhere and accomplish anything. And I will always be your number one fan. When you need a laugh, when you need to cry, or when you just need a hug….you can always count on your Mama! I love you so very much my sweet boy! You will ALWAYS be Mama’s Baby!

Happy Birthday!

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Time

I still haven’t figured out how to slow down time. It has been close to a year since I posted on here and I am not going to say the same thing I did the last time it had been such a long window between postings. I love my blog and I feel like I have so many things I want to document and share, however finding time to actually put together posts often don’t make it past a thought I have. I think I need so set a small goal and try to post a new post once a week. That would be a baby step. Because now after almost a year I have million things I feel like I could document….and then I drop off the map. So here is to “trying” not to neglect this blog. And making an effort to document the happenings in our world!

So here is a little run down of the last year…

I became a mom of a middle schooler. Yikes! I turned 32. Double Yikes! I have become stronger in my faith. I have struggled with how to be a “mom” to my step son and overcome all of the many issues he has. I have fought hard to be a good wife. I have been a stay at home mom. I have spent a lot of time working on things that I never seemed to have time for before. I have had to learn to share myself…with the 3 children in this house and my husband. Although I feel like I need so much more work on giving my husband time. School is now out. My step son graduated high school! My son is a 7th grader and my baby starts her last year of elementary school…*sniffle sniffle* My other step son is in his last year of middle school. The kids are growing so fast and keeping me busy. But here is to trying to make use of the time I have…..and blog about what I am doing with that time!

Monday, July 25, 2011

Plastic Spoon Wreath

I saw this on another blog and loved it! Hers looks much better than mine…I was in a hurry and should have spaced the spoons so much more symmetrically.

I used about 55 or so spoons. You can use different colors, but I liked the white against my newly painted walls.

To get started you need the spoons and a glue gun. It is pretty simple to do!

I tape wax paper to my workspace so that clean up is easy!

A couple dots of glue…hard to see in this picture.

And keep gluing!

It will work itself into a circle. I think that the further you place the spoons the larger the wreath.

Finished product and so easy. I took ribbon from my bow making stash and made this cute little thing to hang it with!

Thursday, June 2, 2011

Safe Racer & Stem Fair

It is no big secret that I am one PROUD MAMA! I think I have the two most awesome kiddos ever. They both recently attended the STEM Fair. Caitlyn won from her school for the SafeRacer car. They were to design a car from recycled materials that would safely carry an egg.

Her little car was so cute.She was chosen as the leader for her group of four. Here are a few pictures from the competition.

Caitlyn and the car!

Getting checked in…she was the only one there from her group at that time. She was so nervous.

Testing their car.

Measuring!

Final test to see how well the egg is protected!

Final round!

Three of the four members! AWESOME job guys!!

Certificates and Ribbons!!

Chris won the First Place in 5th grade Science Fair for his school and was chosen to represent them at the STEM fair! He did such a great job. He had to spend 2 hours away from us being judged and answering questions. Was very proud of him!

With his project!

Me with my boy!

3rd place!!!

So proud!!

There were so many kids there and I am so proud of Chris for going and doing such a great job!!

And here are some pictures we took being silly while waiting between judging!

The two little loves of my life!

My husband and love of my life!

Kiddos!

Chris and Tristan

Caity and Tristan

Me and my kiddos!!

Showing how big our muscles are!

A little backwards…but

Hear no Evil, See no Evil, Speak no Evil!

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Spring Break

Yeah I know a little late!! We headed to Kentucky to visit my family for Spring Break. It ended up being the perfect time. My mom’s birthday was Friday April 15…I arrived there on Saturday! Happy Birthday Mom! Tristan was with his grandparents. So it was the perfect time to get away and enjoy my family and my boy and girl!

I took Chloe with me and she was an awesome traveler…I have to back up and introduce her. She is my sweet little girl and I so adore her!!